Experiences

Can't always be good but I am an empiricist.

Tangible Dreams

Recently I've had a lot of vivid dreams.
As Freud said, these mysterious dreams are from my subconsious desire. Indeed.
In one of my dreams, I kept trying to find a magnifying glass without sucess.
In another I lost my favourite dress just before I was supposed to go to a party.
In another I visited a house I was always curious about and sensed that it was not the kind of place I could stay longer. So let's move on to reality.
The more real a dream, the longer I think about it and try to find what is behind it.
Honesty needs bravery.

Ventilation

Everybody needs their own way of getting rid of their stress.

Just talking to a knot in a tree can be one solution according to Asian traditional story.

Have you ever felt that like when you are at the dentist's, and they touch your nerve by mistake but you can't actually scream because of the situation. The dentist is watching you.

London has thousands of artificial eyes. Maybe you really don't care about this, but sensitive people like me can sense some dark tiny eye watching them from the dark shadow of their lens. woo hoo hoo...

Moonlight

No matter how I try to hide myself from the outside, a shadowy creature appears with its head in front of mine and says 'It's about time to divulge.'

The full moon has a strange power to lighten wounds in deep inside of the mind and sometimes I think it helps to cure them. While you are not looking, small things grow into bigger things and you can't move them without others' help. Live simply...That's the clever way to live unless you want to live on Mars.

Validated by others

It depends on what you believe and what kind of person you are, you make different art from others, so let's do art in your way.

Yesterday, I watched a film called ' man on wire'.

A French man who wants to walk between the Twin Towers by putting a wire between the two buildings.

In the film he said, "Everything is possible."

and "At that moment, I thought it looked impossible, so let's start working."

"Life is rebellion, you need to live on the edge of life."

Of coures you can live very safe life like normal people do, but I felt something from this flim. Perhaps that's the way to make the most beautiful things that can't be explained by words.

If you have energy and you are willing to die for your work then you are ready to make a masterpiece. It only happens when you sincerely want it.

Expression

ART. PAINTING..


It's really difficult to be objective about myself to see what I want to say. Long ago there was a time when you didn't need to step backwards to observe yourself. Just Experss.. Express...
(Maybe it depends on how clever you are..)

The purity of painting always make me cry but it is very rare to see nowadays.

Because we are living in a world with numerous materials. Whatever we imagine, we can make. In this world people make a portrait using a person's DNA. It's a totally different spectrum. In this time are you going to paint person's face in oil? It's difficult. We can't express the zeitgeist by using just perfect traditional no-one dare deny material. Think more...In this time I will finally reach the end of modernity.
Yet I can't do this that soon.

Give and being taken

I have my great great grandfather's sister's daught's ex-husband's son's charming brown eyes.

Booming

Probably my repeated headache from long-term ignorance and indifference. Sure.. It is..
Because I haven’t used it for ages, my brain can’t take any further serious vocabulary, and is shouting at me “I am a kind of muscle. You should warm me up before you need me for big and deep thoughts. You idiot.” Sorry my friend. I am too lazy to use you regularly.
As I get older year by year, there are lots of things I easily forget such as how I was when I travelled alone or the day I cried the most.
Follow my friend’s advice, life is just like a big book. The most tragic moment will be just one page of our life, once it goes, it doesn’t matter really but no-one knows the end of that book yet.

Melting Feelings

Don't know when it started and where it came from, just everything mixed together.

That kind of feeling. You might know..

Relationships

The hardest thing on earth.